Cassandra shrugs. This is at least fifty per cent of why she just wants him
to just read her file already, but - whatever, she can tell him.
"The Moonstone Opal is a stone that fell to Earth as a drop of pure
moonlight," she explains briskly. "When someone claims it, they meld with
it and gain its power. Its armor made me...pretty much invulnerable."
"I don't know what you want me to say. I'd just been pulled out of a fight
to the death against the person who used to be my best friend, and then I
was suddenly in this crazy prison barge in space, and I cannot
tell you I was thinking rationally."
“Things I didn’t know until now. Though my point remains: you’re focused on how well you can kill. Whereas I’m trying to figure out if you need to have this thing to make anything we’re doing make any real sense in your real life.”
"I'm focused on - what? Nnno. I hadn't killed anybody before, and given how she could talk to me about it afterward I'd say I have a good argument that my record is still zero," Cassandra snaps. "I called it a fight to the death because me being here means that it was a fight to my death. You are really jumping to conclusions here, pal."
Jon listens, though he thinks some wires have clearly been crossed. He’s not the best at unraveling them; of his many skills (does he have many skills? Sometimes he thinks he’s kind of useless mostly) that is not one of them.
“I haven’t jumped to anything. I’m trying to say that you misunderstood why I was asking something, which to be fair… is my fault.”
He folds his hands.
“I don’t think that your actions when you came here are your baseline. Hell, mine wasn’t either and I came as a warden, as prepared as any of them are. And while we can debate if death is death, which I happen to think it is, but doesn’t actually have anything to do with our discussion at the moment, I’m not worried about how well you can defend yourself, at least not yet. Clearly you can, and if that was the concern, I’d just get you a weapon.”
He sighs.
“Being able to kill someone on a whim is part of you. It shapes who you are and how you think. If that’s something you usually have, it’s something we have to consider. If it’s not, less so. Just as being invulnerable would shape how someone thinks as well.”
"...Look. I'm not planning to start any fights, but I'm not going to turn around and run from them either. I've been trained for it. Just because I can kill someone doesn't mean it's a hobby. Having a weapon to defend myself would be useful but it's not necessary, and the Moonstone isn't either. Are we done with this conversation?"
“I don’t believe I tied you to the chair so the conversation is done when you say it’s done.”
He sighs and rubs at his temple. Then he lets out a huff.
“I’m not- lovely, I don’t put things well, but I sincerely want to help you. I don’t think you want to be dead. I don’t think you want to be trapped. If I’m wrong, please, tell me.”
"No. You're not wrong. And trust me, I don't want 'lovely'."
She sips her tea.
"But every time I ask you to even have an opinion on how I'm going to get
out of here, you just turn it around on me and say that I'm the one who's
going to do all the work and I'm the expert on me. Which, okay, I don't
disagree. I just don't get how you're going to help if you're not going to
do anything."
“…because I don’t know anything about you. And this-“ he points at the folder, “will tell me facts. But it won’t tell me that either.”
He spreads one hand. “A piece of paper can tell you the town I’m from and that I was raised by my grandmother. I’m sure it’s evoked a certain image even now. But that image becomes something else when I tell you that I ran away constantly, that I wanted nothing more than to get away from her because I knew she didn’t want me there. That I was a burden to her, not someone to love. And children feel those things keenly.”
He folds his hands.
“I never said you’ll do all the work. I said you’re a part of figuring out what we’re doing. And that I won’t force you to do it. I barely know you. Any goal or idea I’d put forth would be patronizing at best and useless at worst. If you want my theories, I’ll give them but I wanted to give you a chance to come forward with something first.”
"Yeah. I was. And then I had to relearn how to do everything with my left
hand, because she couldn't just trust me. She was - she thought she was
my best friend. But that's not how it is anymore."
"That was when I knew I couldn't trust her. I started being trouble when I
took the Moonstone."
Ugh, more explanation.
"...It was meant to be her job to take it, her destiny, because she had
its opposite. The Sundrop. She'd been warned that letting them make contact
might kill her but she didn't care."
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Date: 2021-07-02 01:45 pm (UTC)He gestures to himself.
“I can’t guarantee anything, but it might be something I could ask about.”
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Date: 2021-07-02 01:57 pm (UTC)Cassandra shrugs. This is at least fifty per cent of why she just wants him to just read her file already, but - whatever, she can tell him.
"The Moonstone Opal is a stone that fell to Earth as a drop of pure moonlight," she explains briskly. "When someone claims it, they meld with it and gain its power. Its armor made me...pretty much invulnerable."
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Date: 2021-07-02 03:33 pm (UTC)“I need to know if it has offensive capabilities. Could you kill someone with it.”
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Date: 2021-07-02 03:38 pm (UTC)"...Yes. But I...killed somebody with a billiards cue on my first day here. Accidentally," she adds.
She doesn't really need the help, is what she's saying.
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Date: 2021-07-02 03:56 pm (UTC)“…what I’m hearing is that you can barely be trusted with the furniture. I hope you realize that.”
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Date: 2021-07-02 04:18 pm (UTC)Cassandra rolls her eyes.
"I don't know what you want me to say. I'd just been pulled out of a fight to the death against the person who used to be my best friend, and then I was suddenly in this crazy prison barge in space, and I cannot tell you I was thinking rationally."
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Date: 2021-07-02 04:20 pm (UTC)“Things I didn’t know until now. Though my point remains: you’re focused on how well you can kill. Whereas I’m trying to figure out if you need to have this thing to make anything we’re doing make any real sense in your real life.”
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Date: 2021-07-02 04:25 pm (UTC)"I'm focused on - what? Nnno. I hadn't killed anybody before, and given how she could talk to me about it afterward I'd say I have a good argument that my record is still zero," Cassandra snaps. "I called it a fight to the death because me being here means that it was a fight to my death. You are really jumping to conclusions here, pal."
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Date: 2021-07-02 04:33 pm (UTC)“I haven’t jumped to anything. I’m trying to say that you misunderstood why I was asking something, which to be fair… is my fault.”
He folds his hands.
“I don’t think that your actions when you came here are your baseline. Hell, mine wasn’t either and I came as a warden, as prepared as any of them are. And while we can debate if death is death, which I happen to think it is, but doesn’t actually have anything to do with our discussion at the moment, I’m not worried about how well you can defend yourself, at least not yet. Clearly you can, and if that was the concern, I’d just get you a weapon.”
He sighs.
“Being able to kill someone on a whim is part of you. It shapes who you are and how you think. If that’s something you usually have, it’s something we have to consider. If it’s not, less so. Just as being invulnerable would shape how someone thinks as well.”
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Date: 2021-07-02 04:38 pm (UTC)"...Look. I'm not planning to start any fights, but I'm not going to turn around and run from them either. I've been trained for it. Just because I can kill someone doesn't mean it's a hobby. Having a weapon to defend myself would be useful but it's not necessary, and the Moonstone isn't either. Are we done with this conversation?"
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Date: 2021-07-02 04:51 pm (UTC)He sighs and rubs at his temple. Then he lets out a huff.
“I’m not- lovely, I don’t put things well, but I sincerely want to help you. I don’t think you want to be dead. I don’t think you want to be trapped. If I’m wrong, please, tell me.”
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Date: 2021-07-02 04:56 pm (UTC)"No. You're not wrong. And trust me, I don't want 'lovely'."
She sips her tea.
"But every time I ask you to even have an opinion on how I'm going to get out of here, you just turn it around on me and say that I'm the one who's going to do all the work and I'm the expert on me. Which, okay, I don't disagree. I just don't get how you're going to help if you're not going to do anything."
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Date: 2021-07-02 05:05 pm (UTC)He spreads one hand. “A piece of paper can tell you the town I’m from and that I was raised by my grandmother. I’m sure it’s evoked a certain image even now. But that image becomes something else when I tell you that I ran away constantly, that I wanted nothing more than to get away from her because I knew she didn’t want me there. That I was a burden to her, not someone to love. And children feel those things keenly.”
He folds his hands.
“I never said you’ll do all the work. I said you’re a part of figuring out what we’re doing. And that I won’t force you to do it. I barely know you. Any goal or idea I’d put forth would be patronizing at best and useless at worst. If you want my theories, I’ll give them but I wanted to give you a chance to come forward with something first.”
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Date: 2021-07-02 05:11 pm (UTC)She shrugs expressively.
"Well, all I've gathered so far is how I'm trapped here until I turn back into the loyal doormat everybody wanted me to be, so. Theory me."
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Date: 2021-07-02 05:26 pm (UTC)"That. Let's start with that. Why you think I or anyone else wants you to be a loyal doormat."
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Date: 2021-07-02 05:30 pm (UTC)"Not you. The Admiral, I guess. And basically everybody back home. Because back when I was that, I wasn't a problem."
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Date: 2021-07-02 05:31 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2021-07-02 05:39 pm (UTC)Cassandra scoffs into her teacup.
"Everybody you saw in my memory, for one thing. All her friends. Her whole kingdom."
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Date: 2021-07-02 05:40 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2021-07-02 05:49 pm (UTC)Her eyes narrow.
"Yeah. I was. And then I had to relearn how to do everything with my left hand, because she couldn't just trust me. She was - she thought she was my best friend. But that's not how it is anymore."
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Date: 2021-07-02 06:03 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2021-07-02 06:08 pm (UTC)"That was when I knew I couldn't trust her. I started being trouble when I took the Moonstone."
Ugh, more explanation.
"...It was meant to be her job to take it, her destiny, because she had its opposite. The Sundrop. She'd been warned that letting them make contact might kill her but she didn't care."
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Date: 2021-07-02 06:12 pm (UTC)Because there's being trouble for people in the present and then there's being trouble for magical whatever.
"Or why they'd decide that if it would kill her."
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Date: 2021-07-02 06:22 pm (UTC)Cassandra lifts her eyebrows in his direction.
"She believed it and she marched right up to take the thing anyway. Does all that other stuff matter?"
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Date: 2021-07-02 06:23 pm (UTC)"...I hope you won't be upset if I'm starting to doubt your friend is very bright." A pause. "But yes, it rather does."
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